Part one of day 65

Hey baby boy. Its strange today. Im feeling low/sad but my mind is racing NON stop. My mind wonders, im a day dreamer I don’t think that’s a bad thing. I dont think its bad that my mind wonders unless I can no longer focus on what I need to do. Max baby today is a music day. Im not really sure about myself today. Im very matter of fact, almost unemotional. You ask me a question and ill give you an answer, but don’t expect anything else. Its all the energy I have to be ok. Today is a day where I need to look forward not around. I need to just do my work. Today is a day that talking about mindless things will wear on me. Maybe it would be good though. But I just don’t feel like it. Unless you want to talk about medical things, and Max. Unless you want to figure that all out, I have nothing to say. Max baby I hate being like this. I just don’t have the energy chit chat and be social. So far its been busy though. Busy is good. Max im very mellow today. Things are how they are so I need to except it. Just go with the motions.  I love you