Hi baby boy I have been seeing lots of toads. I was getting worried because I did not see any. Once I started to work on your fundraiser they started to come. I miss you so much and those little toads make me so happy.

I really miss you and this year the fundraiser is hard. I feel like people are going to not care. As time goes by no one will want to participate any more. Then what do I do?

I love you. I Miss you. I need you.

Missing you and everything that I should have with you. Your sister is awesome but I still wish you were here with us.

I started working on your birthday fundraising flyer and wow I'm having a hard time. Did not realize that 2 months away would bring up so much. I was looking at your photos and I really miss you. All I have are 3 of you alive. The rest you are gone. Just really missing you and struggling a lot. But I'm the great pretender it's what info. I will get through for you. No one knows how hard this still is. A piece of me is missing. Alex is so great but I look at your pictures and then her. I see you in her so much and I just wonder, what if! What would you be like.

I miss you. I miss the toads. I need you.

I love you.