Day 60 national remembrance day.

Hi my little love. Do you know October is infant and baby loss month. Today Oct 15 is national remembrance day. There is a day to remember that you died. I find that weird becuase everyday I remember ! How could I ever forget. There are lots of things planned today, I just dont think I can do any of them. I feel weird, I dont know why I just do. There is a walk through the MISS foundation in Phila, and there is the service at Brwyn Mayer hospital. I did want to go, I just could not. Maybe next year I can. What I will do though is try my best to be in a positive mood, not be grumpy. I will light a candle for you today. I will talk about you, and as always I will love you. Max baby I dont need a month, or a day I have everyday of my life. Max I will honor you not in sorrow but in joy. (or I will try) . If I stay stuck or miserable I am not doing any justice to you and your precious  little life. Max I love you.