Max I was better today. I have been reading all day,and today it seems to be helping. It's nice being in someone else's world for a whole. Even if it is fiction. Max it's still a negative,and I'm not expecting anything else,but in the meantime just in case I need to get ready for this shot. Max I can't control this life, I have lost control of everything.At least today I can speak a sentence with out hysterically crying or getting angry for no reason. I love you and miss you more then anything