Hi my little love its been 20 weeks since you were born and left my world. So far today is not so bad. I'm real tired though. Right now for a Monday it's really kind of moving slow. I can't talk to my boss today because she has a big day. It's the administrative roll call this morning where we are all sworn in for the new election year. Then she will be in and out of the office all day. I will do it this week. I have to!
Max I'm home now. Work overall was ok. It was weird, though working directly with my supervisor after Fridays strange events, But it was ok. I made sure not to act weird or anything, I was myself. Completely fine at work. I made joke with the guy I was also working with. I enjoy being around some of the guys at work. There is little sensitivity and I really appreciate that lately. It's crude jokes, and comments, it's light and breaks up the day. It was my week to leave early so thats a plus, but I did not get out of work on time.
Max baby I need to go the gym tonight. I'm losing weight (another five pounds), but I'm getting soft, losing my muscle because Im just plan lazy. It's just so hard, I lack the motivation I used to. Ha maybe it's because I don't care anymore. This is who I am! Max being pregnant with you changed the way I feel about my body. I loved growing with you, I loved the plumpness. I know I will never be 115 again with no curves, I'm ok with that, as long I'm healthy. You made me this way-thanks
Max Im going to work on your book tonight. But I HAVE to get to the gym first. Right now though I'm going to enjoy time with your dad. I will talk to you later.
Hi baby boy. I went to the gym, it was nothing great but better then nothing. I got my butt there. I ate some ground turkey for dinner and now her I am. Max your daddy is having a rough day with work tonight. I hope it gets better for him. He has been having a hard time lately. Max I really love your daddy. I wish you were able to know him like I do.
Overall today was an ok day. I thought about you a lot but it was a good thought, kind of day.
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