Third and final post of the day

Hi baby, tonight was not as bad as my anxious self made it out to be. It happened though, they asked! I really did not want to go to our seats . When we sat, the first said they were glad we are back, because team was so bad a lot of other season ticket holders in our area did not come back. Then all excited she asked how it is being a mom. Shane and I had planned that he would be the one to say it. But I just just blurted out that "he's dead" then your dad told them you died after birth. Max baby I felt sorry for the girl . Her faced changed and she keep saying she is so sorry. Max my eyes where full of tears but I told her its ok,we get that response a lot. I know when your pregnant and then you see someone a while later, they expect happy responses. No one expects to hear a baby has died. The team still sucks and they may be even worse this year. We lost BIG time! 12-22 them! The one thing though that we did well was fight! I think I saw some of the best fights ever tonight. Max one of our other favorite players "Max Siebld" had a Lot of plays where people would say his name. Including the guys that sit in front of us. They did not know its your name. The player with your name is part of how you got your name. And we both also really liked it.

Max I'm so stressed and tense, I hold it all in my shoulders, and there killing me!

I saw and heard your first name a lot tonight and I enjoyed it. Like I told you before though I'm glad they traded my favorite player with your middle name. I think that would have been hard. There is Max Siebld and Athan Ianucci two of my favorite players and together they formed your name. Ha ha ha maybe you decided you hated lacrosse and wanted no parts of it!! I sure hope thats not why you decided not to stick around!

Oh because we are season ticket holders and renewed them early we where given a brick from the spectrum, I think it made your dad sad,because it made him miss his daddy. He would have loved to have that brick. I told him we can bring it to his grave and put it in the ground next to him. Maybe you can tell him hello, if it works that way.

I love you Max Athan Brant, my little love