Max im in a really cranky mood. Today is just a day. I need to stop being a miserable grouch, but im just not happy. Your dad wants to go to the mall so we can get another pair of earrings because somehow I lost  the one. Makes me wonder if I cant keep a less then month old pair of earrings in my ear maybe I would not have been a good mom. Maybe I would have failed at that, and some one out there is sparing you. Max im so sad and agitated. Im trying to convince your dad he should go out with his friends tomorrow. He wants to but also says he wants to send time with me. I think he should  get a break from me. I need a break from me. I just wanted to talk to you and tell you I love you. Im REALLY missing you a lot. I love your face and I miss it. Today is randomly very hard.