What to do with the baby things.

Max was full term so we had evything but a high chair. I refse to get rid of anything. I dont think Im being selfish. He was my baby and these are his things. Its not like they out grew there things, he died. These items are a connection I hold to the idea of him. After the memorial I did pack most of the baby things up. I put all the clothes/blankets and baby things like toys, bottles, bath stuff all in bins. (nice ones) I felt the need to make the room less cluttered. I did not want anything to get ruined, or get dust on it. I left the crib up, but I took all the bedding down except for a sheet. I made the changing table into Max's table. His Ashes sit there with pictures from when he was alive. His box from the hospital that has his little hat and a some of his hair. I wanted to make the room more peacfull. It was very clutterd before. I also hold on to these things for a sibling for my baby. I wanted kids back to back anyway. It just gives me hope that I will be able to share him with a sibling for him. Max gave me hope that things will someday be ok again. I know the fear of trying again is overwhelming but it keeps me going . Because I also do not know why Max died it brings up so much fear and unanswered questions. Will this happen again, how can they correct it if they dont know why. I think these are things that I have to figure out how to answer for my self. I wish I had nothing though. I wish I started getting things after you were born, not before.