Hi baby boy. Today has been hard. Super hard for some reason some days are just harder. I talked about you a lot though, that was the best part of my day. Max I hate figuring out how to live again. I hate being so depressed, oh and I really think I'm gaining wait faster then I was losing it. You would think being depressed would have me lose my appetite but no it's making me eat more, before it was never an issue because I would just get rid of it. But Max so far my promise has been kept to you, my little love.
I love thinking about all the great things about you, and I miss you do much baby boy. But that's ok, sometimes thinking about you may make me Sad but its ok. It's actually good to think about you.