Hello baby boy. Today was better.even though I did have a small crying moment. Another supervisor asked me if because of the light duty uniform I was wearing did it mean what he thinks it means. I sad yes. He said congratulations, but I stopped him and said no congratulations until this baby is home. I said I'm not telling anyone because my head can't handle it, but I don't care that people know. He said he understands. No I don't think he does, but that's ok. Still he was understanding. But as soon as he left I was by myself and I started to cry. I hate feeling so weak at work. But I could not stop it. Thankfully I was alone for a little while and pulled myself together. It's just hard sometimes.

Max today was better, but I'm really missing you. I was doing ok, but this week has been really hard. There was a few times I wanted to talk about you, when I was pregnant with you. But I stopped, those around me would not understand or I think be able to handle my need to just talk about you.

I am tired tonight and very emotional, but ok
I love you.