Good evening baby boy. I'm getting real anxious for tomorrow I have a big fetal maternal medicine appointment and I'm so anxious and worried. What worries me is that I have to bring your autopsy and I know the day you died and why will be topic of conversation and I'm so anxious and scared. I dread talking about you and your death. It never gets easier. I'm off tomorrow though so that's good.

Max I feel like I'm getting sick. It could just be allergies though. I hope I'm not getting sick though.

I'm going to bed. Max thank you for everything you teach me and give to me. I love you