Hello Max my love. I love you. Im struggling with why I did not get to keep you all over again. I have been really sad this last week. I have so many mixed emotions I love your sister but Im so scared im going to lose her to. 6 more weeks untill they will induce her. 6 more weeks for something to go wrong. I am very scared. I dont want your sister to be with you. I need her to stay here with me.

Max I was so in love with you, and you could not stay.  I had a dream about a toad the other day, I miss you.