Today I did not cry. But I'm missing you do much. I looked at one if your pictures after you died and it makes me so sad.

Your sister is in my arms and I type on my phone with one finger. I feel sick and I worry she will get sick. Every day I feel like she will die. I need her to stay with me. I wish i new her future. I need to keep her.

Max your daddy got an interview. Please hold his hand from heaven. He really needs this.

Also I decided we will get pictures done of alex. Pictures from the guy that took yours after you died. We will include you and I will never have family photos with out you. It was hard making the call, but I knew if anyone could understand and take your picture still it would be this guy.

I'm hoping Alex sleeps tonight so I can. I love you baby boy.