Maxi today was hard. I cried out of the blue for you. Yesterday your dad sister and I went to the mall and you were missing. Sometimes it's so much harder. I wonder if holidays will get easier. I feel bad feeling so sad when I'm so lucky to have your sister. No one understands. Your not here I'm missing you and so sad. I put your Christmas tree up today. We got you a new ornament for your tree.

I'm really missing you baby boy.