Max I miss you. I have been thinking of writting every night. I have no excuse I just have not! Sorry my little love.

I continue to miss you over and over. More and more. Now that we are doing this again, things have been very similar to you and it's super scary. A vanishing twin, placenta is in the same position, just brings me back to you and scares me.

Tomorrow I have to go to a lunch about you. Well an appreciation lunch where I will be acknowledged. Max first of all I really am shy, but second I don't want any acknowledgment for your memorial fundraiser, I do it for you no matter what. It's tomorrow and I just said yes today because someone I know asked me personally. I still may change my mind tomorrow.

I feel like sometimes life with out you gets harder when I feel like I'm suspossed to act like its eaiser.

Good night sweet boy