Max I remember this evening, by now I started having some contractions from being induced. I was excited, I was going to have you sometime in the next 24 hours. I was happy.

I have been happy since, but not the way I was before. My breakdowns have begun and I'm breaking. The good thing about being so busy is not thinking. The bad thing is those emotions still come and they it catch up fast and it hits hard.

I miss you so much it hurts. Tomorrow you turn two, my love.